I often struggle with feeling emotions.
Stop laughing, Mother.
Okay, maybe there’s a better way to phrase it. Sometimes, I have a hard time feeling emotions to the point where I can move beyond them. More times than not, the thing that shoves me fully into the feeling is music. Be it grief, melancholy, anxiety, whatever, I can usually find a song that will throw me right there and make me feel whatever I need to feel to the marrow of my bone. Once I reach that point, have fully acknowledged it, I can let it go.
(Iwillnotbreakintosong. Iwillnotbreakintosong. Iwillnotbreakintosong.)
Example: When I’m writing, I tend to find a song that goes with the tone or the emotion of what I’m trying to write and put that baby on repeat until the entire world is sick of it. There was one day not too long ago when I had one song going for 23 times, and I honestly had no idea until Earl came into the room and proclaimed, “ENOUGH WITH THAT SONG!”
But. BUT. If there was ever any doubt that the kid is mine, tonight shattered it.
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